New Song

Here's a new song I wrote.. I guess my last blog really got to me, and it was on my mind all day yesterday, so I wrote about it. First it started out as a poem but as musical as I am (haha), I turned it into a song:

(My Only) Novicane

i feel no hurt
for i am numb
i don't know where
this blood came from

chorus
i feel it now
it's in my skin
the deeper i go
i know pain exists
deeper, deeper
i feel it, i feel it
i can't take it anymore
but my heart is still sore
and though i am ashamed
it's my only novicane

i'd rather feel the cut
that pinches my soul
instead of feeling worthless
inside my little hole

it feels better on my flesh
than it does inside my chest
i'd rather do it to myself
than have it caused by someone else

it stings, it stings so bad
so bad that i don't want to cry
but the tears are still falling
and i hear you calling
and i'm sorry, oh i'm sorry
i just can't feel anything

(chorus repeat)

take it away
please take this away
i still see red, i still see red
but it feels too good to stop
the blood and the tears still drop
pick me up
just take me with you
cuz i don't wanna be here
no i dont wanna be here
i just want to be at ease
my heart to be in one piece

this pain that i feel
just doesn't seem real
and i want to make sure
that i can feel, feel the hurt

i feel it now
it's in my skin
and the deeper i go
i know pain exists
deeper, deeper
i feel it, oh i feel it
i can't take it anymore
but my heart is still sore
so i'll go deeper, deeper
it hurts so bad
it feels so good
and though i am ashamed
it's my only novicane
though i'm so ashamed
it's my only novicane